Utter and terrible pain.
Not even the type you can heal.
No you left me with the pain of
Doubt.
Hate.
Wondering.
And disappointment.
How could you do this to me?
Should I blame myself?
Could I have possibly stopped you?
Does it even matter now?
You are
Gone.
Is it forever?
NO!
I will get you back.
How else can I live with this pain?
It will be there till you return.
Sure you did hurt me.
Sure you broke a few bones.
Made me bleed.
Hell even punched a hole through my chest.
But this is so much worse.
The guilt.
The guilt of knowing I didn’t succeed.
That you still left.
That you could still walk away.
That you are still gone.
Who can I blame?
Can I blame you?
Is this your fault?
Or did I do something?
I wish you were here to tell me.
But you’re gone.
I can take a lot you know.
I have lived with a lot in my short life.
Everything you can imagine.
I’ve dealt with it.
You’ve dealt with pain too.
So how can you do this to me?
How could you leave me?
Leave everyone?
Just for what?
Power?
Not even a good reason.
I have to live through the pain.
Every day.
Every day I see where we used to go.
Every day I see our friends.
Every day I convince them to keep up hope.
That I will bring you back.
No matter what.
Am I going to break another promise?
Will you come back?
What do I have to do to get rid of this pain?!
I want you home.
Everyone does.
But can I do it?
Will you listen to an idiot like me?
An idiot for actually still loving you.
Even with this horrible pain.
I can’t stop thinking of you.
I need you back.
Everyone needs you.
Didn’t you ever notice anyone besides yourself?
You selfish bastard.
Didn’t you notice how much we all cared?
How blind are you?
Can you at see now?
Can you see how much you being
Gone
Has affected us?
Everyone is worried.
And the pain…
The pain of hearing them whisper
Every time I return home
Alone.
Every time I see Sakura cry.
Because you aren’t with me.
Every time another lead
Goes dry.
Why are you making this so hard?!?
Why can’t you just come home?
Why!?!
Why are you gone?
Why?
And why can’t I just get you home?
Why am I such a failure that I can’t get you
Back?
Why?
How long will this pain be here?
Is it trying to replace you?
We already tried that.
Tried to actually replace you.
It of course didn’t work.
No one could ever replace you.
Why did you have to leave?
Why aren’t you home?
Why are you
Gone?