You see, i was working on another story two years ago, for fun, and my aunt who'd just shown up after dealing with a drug issue of hers (my family's "terrific", and i use that last word loosely) found out what the THEME of the story was from some notes i'd written and flipped. I guess she has homophobia or something because she DID NOT like the fact that i was writing a yaoi fanfic, and threatend 2 tell my "wonderful" parents, and i, not wanting to be kicked out of the house in the middle of winter just then, had to agree not to write any more fanfiction. T.T and i hate her for that. so so much. Along with all the other things she's done and not apologized for.
...and i kind of fell off the Naruto-fan band wagon when i found out about YuYu Hakusho for a while. hehehe. ^_^;;;

anyways, the poetry in here is mostly some lyrics to songs my friends and i were going to use for our band, but Mia and Ethan both moved and then there was some artistic differences because we were trying to form a Heavy-metal/rock/pop/techno band, since my friends and i have so many different tastes (that's why we luuuurves each other so much though) and yeah. the band broke up needless to say. but i stil have a butt-load of our old music so when i found out that this website was still running (YOSH!) i thought "what the heck?" and decided i'd just post these on here. ^^

I'm so happy
so so very happy
I'm so happy
'cause theres only one of me! ^^

I'm so happy
so very very happy
Beautiful, sexy, and happy
can't you see?

Pink Puffy clouds and lollipops...
Fuzzy puppies and bashing baby's teeth!

I'm so happy!
so so happy!
Sweet little sugar coated me!

Whenever i get mad I just smile and sing this song.
I'm singing!
Can't you see?

I'm so happy!
so very very happy!
All you lovers beware
I'm happy as a whore
Yes i'm so very very happy
All you lovers beware
I'm Happy as a whore.

Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha!

I'm so happy,
so so happy-
Dude, guys! i can't do this...i'm not happy. (SHUT UP AND SING!)

I'm so happy
so so very happy
Can't you see?

I'm so happy!
So very very Happy!
But if you mess with me
I'm gonna blow you off the street!

I'm so happy!
so so very happy!
I love to dance and sing! b34;b35;b34;b34;b34;b35;b34;

I'm so happy!
so very very happy
Can't you see?

I'm so happy!
so so bright and cheery!
With love i dedicate this song
to anyone else just as happy out there as me! ^^

I'm so happy!
i'm so very happy!
So so Happy! -
Dude, forget this,
I'm out of here!
SCREW YOU!

I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong,
Talk like everythings perfect.
Act like it's just a dream,
And pretend it's not hurting me.

Listen to the rain fall,
Drown in your own misery, but still think,
All the people of whome have sacrificed much for you,
Thank them all.
They took the time to deal with who you really are.

She got what i couldn't.
She touched what i wouldn't.
She wanted what i had.
In the end it's just to bad.

The thinkgs i held dearest to my heart;
Are the things that most easily tore me apart.

It's so hard to be TOUGH.
When one way or another,
Someone makes you feel....
Like your not good enough.

A kissis a bite of chocolate,
that your mouth savors,
even when it's long gone.

I didn't say it was your fault,
I said i was going to blame you.


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ooookay apparently i don't have enough words to load this chapter so what happens next is sheer randomness and a huge craving for sugar i swear;
SUGAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kakashi: someone's a little hyper today....
me: HEY MR. DJ PUT A RECORD ON I WANNA DANCE WITH MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!
everyone: O.O oh godz where did she get sugar?
me: i didn't have any. ^^ i'm just naturally a spazz ya know?
Tobi: YAY! TOBI'S NOT ALONE! *hugs Cat*
me: Ohmygoshtobihaveyouevertriedthosepurplemonsterdrinks? arn'ttheynasty?
Tobi: yesyesyes!tobidoesn'tlikethem.
me: meneithermate,meneighter.
SUGAR! OMG I LOVESUGARITISSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOGOOOOOD! SUGAR!!!!!!!!!!
Shikamaru: i say we run before they actually do find some sugar.
Everyone: yeah. *runs away.*

Red all over
Red Roses in bloom
Grace her pale cold lips as the people
pas by to mourn.
Her smile in death is so gentle,
you'd never guess
That her last words were filled
with laughing scorn.

Red all over
red Carpets that are torn
Red walls surround her coffin
As night paints black
over Crimson.

her unfeeling eyes open slowly
and glisten like sparkling Jems
As they adjust finally to the world
Of forever Crimson Night.

The Queen of hearts lost her Sweet-Heart
and lost her will to feel her heart
forever.

Me: Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow...
Kakashi, Kiba, and Nin-dogs: O.e *twitch*
Kiba: Why the Heck is she singing that?!
me: Well i am a Cat! ^^
Everyone: Grrr.
Me: *goes back to singing the Meow Mix themesong*
Gaara: Does anyone have a cookie?
Kankorou: Dude, baby bro this is no time for youre obsession with cookies.
Gaara: T.T
Hinata: *blushes* W-Wel-ll Well, it's n-not a-as b-b-bad as N-Naruto-kun's obsession w-with ramen.
Everyone:O.O *did she just say something AGAINST Naruto?*
Hinata: What? Th-there's s-some things t-that a-a g-g-girl j-just gets s-sick of, y-you know?
Sasuke: *standing in the back of the crowd waving a little black-mail camera and smirking at Hinata.*
Hinata: *sees the camera, Squeaks, and faints.*
Sasuke: hehehehe...

Roses are red.
The sky is blue.
My life has been broken.
But the pain will do.

Chocolate is a treat meant to be savored...
Even if the taste has long since left your mouth.

(Chorus)
My tears are red.
But they used to be blue.
Her body and spirit are both broken...
But suicide just won't do.
No suicide just won't do.

When you love someone, you just get hurt.
When your hurt by someone, the result's are the same.
(But the first is more painful)

How can I stop crying...
When the pain inside won't die.
And the only person who can make the pain stop;
Is the same person who hurt me first?

(Chorus)
My tears are red.
But they used to be blue.
Her body and spirit are both broken...
But suicide just won't do.

As the pain in her numbs and
Turns her Heart
Into ice.

She picks herself up and walks away.

(chorus)
My tears are red.
But they used to be blue.
Her body and spirit are both broken...
But suicide just won't do.
no Suicide just won't do.

~I may have lost this fight to you but at least i'm not going to quit.

Trying to *save* me,
Acting as if you care,
But i *know* you hate me,
Stop pretending your there.
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There is something wrong with it,
Life cannot explain it, love fears it, depression takes pity on it.
And happiness cannot find it.
What is it you ask?
A broken heart.
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Razor's pain you,
River's are damp.
Acids stain you,
And drug's cause cramp,
Guns arn't lawful,
Nooses give,
Gas smells awful,
you might as well live.
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I'm going to draw a picture,
A picture with a twist,
I'll draw it with a razor,
A razor on my wrist.
And with this twisted picture,
A red fountain will appear,
And all the pain i've kept inside,
Will slowly disappear.
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~I ain't a video game so stop playing me.

Sakura and Ino: *blood curdling scream* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Temari, TenTen, Akatsuki, everyone else: OMG!
me: hehehe.....
Sakura and Ino: *comes out of bathroom, pissed off.*
Sakura: WHO PUT BLONDE DYE IN MY SHAMPOO?!?!?!?!!!!!!
Ino: WHO THE HECK PUT BUBBLE-GUM PINK DYE IN *MY* SHAMPOO?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everyone: O.O OMG!!!!!!!
Lee: Oh my poor sweet Sakura blossom *goes to comfort her but get's thrown through the wall*
Sakura: WHO!!!!!!!!!
me: *is sneaking towards the door with camera, takes a picture, and RUNS.*
both: GET BACK HERE CAT!!!!!

((lol, i'm sorry but i would PAY to see something like this happen in the actual anime. lol))

I never said i was o.k.,
you just interpreted it that way.

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Cutting 5,
taking a razor or any other sharp object,
and making a large or small incision in the skin
is a desperate attempt to feel alive.

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I can't aske for help through the choking
tears i'm trying to swallow.

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Sick of Cryin', tired of Tryin'
Even though i'm smili'n, Inside i'm dieing!



Jiraya: Hey Cat!
me: what?
Jiraya: Hahahahahahahahahaha!
me: ......
Tobi: C-chan, why is the pervy frog man doing that?
me: Either he's on crack or he's thinking doing this will get my number. or both.
Gamabunta: Good luck Kitten. *goes back to sleeping and snoring.*
me and Gaara: Damn i wish i slept that easily.
Jiraya: Hey Cat! Guess what?
me: What?
Jiraya: *pokes me on the nose* Hahahahahhahahahaha!
Iruka: Isn't that harrasing a minor?
Me: no 'cause i'm 18 now.
Iruka: daaaaaaarn.
me: yeah.
Jiraya: *gets a veeeeeeeery pervy grin* Hey Cat? Guess wh-me: ^___^ No! YOU guess what Jiraya?
Jiraya: OMG OMG What?
me: *points past his shoulder.*
*SMACK!*
me: Thank you Iruka-chan. You can go back to Kakashi now.
Iruka: no problem. ^^
Me: Meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow......

Gazing out at the stars
late at night
All she can think of
is the life she has found and lost.
Her life, her memories just found, now
torn away.
And I wonder...
How did it get to be this way?

(Chorus)
Where did you run,
when I needed you?
Where have you gone
now that the nighttime's come?

Can you find you're way back?
return to me.
I Need You! I Miss You! I want you! I need You!
Come back to me!
Oh can't you see?
Oh Can't you see?
(end chorus)

Now the day has come
The child has grown.
Lost in a shattered life
knowing her heart's filled with turmoiled strife.

As daylight dies,
the sun hiding until the next day
Night time breathes
it's first calm breathe of life.
Another peice of her heart
lost in the white night.

(Chorus)

Where did you run,
when I needed you?
Where have you gone
now that the nighttime's come?

Can you find you're way back?
return to me.
I Need You! I Miss You! I want you! I need You!
Come back to me!
Oh can't you see?
Oh Can't you see?
(end Chorus)

Gazing out the window.
Taking in the morning light.
Another sun has come.
Another day has shown.
I can see you standing there
waving to me.
I need you. I missed you. I hated you. I loved you. I needed you,
oh can't you see? I needed you just as you needed me.
oh can't you see?