Ino,
Just broke up with Temari yesterday. Went to the Hokage’s office this morning to get a transfer from the diplomatic function. Seeing her every day after what I did would’ve been too awkward. Tsunade did me the favor, but couldn’t understand why I requested the transfer.
Tch. What a drag. I’ve never felt this way before. I feel… so out of place.
Why did love have to be such a troublesome thing? I never thought it’d turn out the way it did. I’m sure she cried after I left her in the hotel room. Just the thought of it tears me to shreds.
Tell me, Ino… did I make the right choice?
I… I’m not so sure anymore. If I could hurt someone like that, I definitely don’t deserve anybody. Most of all not you. I didn’t deserve her, either. I just hope she can find someone so much better than me.
You’re like a flower, Ino… without the proper care, you’ll shrivel and fall apart. And, believe me when I say I have no idea of how to care for someone like you. Even though I’d like to hold you in my arms, I’m afraid that you’ll crumble to pieces. I’ve already damaged one flower… I won’t have another one to burden my conscience.
You’re so beautiful, Ino. If I could I’d swear on the waters of the River Styx that I shall love you for all time. I’d swear that I shall never hurt you. I’d swear to be yours and yours alone. I’d swear I shall never let you go. But I could have said the same to Temari once upon a time. I would’ve sworn oaths that were supposed to be unbreakable, but were then broken at my hands. Sakura often calls you a pig… she should call me a pig.
I hope you can forgive me for not being able to make those promises. I hope you can understand that I have every intention to make them, but I’m afraid that I will only break them later on. I would’ve been content to just love you from afar, and never have any feelings returned from you. I’m truly grateful that you are willing to put up with me, to take a chance with me. But I don’t deserve it. Not after what I did to her.
Tell me, Ino… will you still take that chance with me? Will you still take me by the hand, and show me how to love you, when you know that I can break your heart, just like I broke Temari’s?
Lost and confused,
Shikamaru
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Chapter notes: Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
Since this thing is getting pretty long, I won't mention all the letter one-shots and such by me and milliexchan that lead up to this. Check out the series they're consolidated in. It's called In Your Shadow/In Your Mind.
As always, any feedback, comments, criticisme, etc. are welcome. I sincerely apologize if this seems too OOC or if the quality of work is not up to my usual standards.